Kitty/Logan Heart to Heart - Bump!Verse

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Logan: *poke*

Kitty: *squeek*

Logan: *tickles*

Kitty: *squeals and squirms*

Logan: *evil grin! *continues*

Kitty: *damn this not being able to phase*

Kitty: *chokes out between giggles* Stop!

Logan: *enjoying this way too much* Say please.

Kitty: *grrrrrrs* Never!

Logan: *smirks! even better* You're gonna regret that. *tickles more*

Kitty: *screams bloody murder in case someone can hear* Shouldn't you be mourning the death of your baby instead of torturing me?

Logan: *stops abruptly, then shoves her away. Way to kill the mood...*

Kitty: Have you even seen Elle since it happened? She's really hurting, you know.

Logan: I can't...

Kitty: Yes you can.

Logan: *scowls; he doesn't want to think about it, let alone talk about it, let alone have someone tell him what to do* I can't.

Kitty: I'm worried about you, Wolvie.

Logan: Don't. I'm fine.

Kitty: Don't lie to me. You know I know better.

Logan: What the hell do you want me t' say?! I never wanted a goddamn baby - she's the one who wanted t' keep it. You wanna worry about someone, worry about her.

Kitty: I am worried about her, because she's talking about how she's feeling even less than you, if that's even possible.

Logan: *that worries him, but he doesn't think he can do anything about it* She's hurtin'. 'Course she is.

Kitty: Come on, I know you had at least gotten used to the idea of having a son.

Logan: Can't get used to a thing like that. *a lie, of course, but one he's trying very hard to believe himself*

Kitty: *she's starting to get frustrated, but she'd expected this from him* Yes you can. You wouldn't have talked to her about names if you weren't.

Logan: *also frustrated, still wanting to avoid the topic* Kid's gonna get born, it needs a name. Shouldn'ta bothered... *and there it is, a glimpse of the pain he tries to hide, flashing across his face*

Kitty: *to touch him or not to touch him? She's not sure* I'm so sorry for what you've lost.

Logan: Don't -... *sighs and tries to stay calm* Just don't.

Kitty: You don't have to hide it from me. I get it.

Logan: Like hell you do!

Kitty: Then explain it to me!

Logan: What is there to explain?! I lost my son! *stupid, but it's shocking to hear, even from his own mouth* I lost -... *but he can't say it again, just can't, it hurts too much*

Kitty: *now she reaches out to try to hug him, not saying anything*

Logan: *he tenses before he lets her, still not quite relaxing, but appreciating the gesture, anyway*

Kitty: I can only imagine how much it hurts, Logan:. I know it has to be ten times worse for you.

Logan: *sounding defeated* It's worse for her.

Kitty: *softly* That's why she needs you. So she won't feel alone in it.

Logan: I can't be there for her. I can't be strong about this. Not yet.

Kitty: She doesn't need you to be strong, she just needs you to be there.

Logan: I am! I'm here - I stayed. Wanted to -... *run, disappear, at least a couple of months, but he didn't*

Kitty: If she hasn't seen you, she doesn't know where you are. You could be in Siberia for all she knows.

Logan: *closes his eyes in frustration* Don't... do this. Don't ask even more of me.

Kitty: Then what should I tell her, when she asks me yet again if I've seen you or if I've talked to you?

Logan: The truth. Tell her I'm here. *of course it isn't enough, but it's a lot, for him; he really is trying*

Kitty: *sighs and rests her chin on his shoulder* I hope that will be enough.

Logan: *just exhales, slowly. Now he's feeling guilty on top of feeling like shit.*

Kitty: *she actually pets his hair a little* You know you can talk to me any time.

Logan: I don't want to. *but he appreciates the offer*

Kitty: *pulls back and looks him in the eyes* As usual, what you want and what you need are not the same thing.

Logan: *shakes head, more to himself than anything* I don't.

Kitty: If I go outside and find a pile of trees hacked into sawdust, I'm gonna know you're lying.

Logan: *doesn't actually smile, but he does relax just a little at that* Not gonna do a thing like that.